Shut Up and Wait with Hope

Scripture:
God, I’m not trying to rule the roost,
I don’t want to be king of the mountain.
I haven’t meddled where I have no business
or fantasized grandiose plans.
I’ve kept my feet on the ground,
I’ve cultivated a quiet heart.
Like a baby content in its mother’s arms,
my soul is a baby content.
Wait, Israel, for God. Wait with hope.
Hope now; hope always!
Psalm 131:1-3

Observation: This is a short and straightforward psalm, with a clear statement by its faithful author. In patiently and hopefully waiting for the Lord, the faithful do not ... try to self-govern, make themselves a leader, meddle in other's business, or dream grand and ungrounded dreams. Instead, they simply wait ... patiently, quietly, with a still contentment.

Application: Everything about this psalm is ... the opposite of my heart. I have tried to rule, both my own life and the lives of others, thinking and even telling others what they should do. I daydream daily about great things I could do or could have done, and much of the time these ideas are completely removed from reality. I worry about what I should be doing next and into the future, actively considering how I should not be doing what I am doing now. I have no patience, and with such discontentment my hope faulters.

I am doing everything wrong.

My heart needs to shut up and wait with hope.

Prayer: Lord, I sincerely want to hear this over and over again, to shut up and wait with hope. I have so many stupid thoughts always stirring in my heart and my soul and my mind, and they are all foolish. I can't even distinguish good ideas from bad, and the reason is likely that all my ideas and thoughts and dreams are bad because I won't shut up and wait for you, waiting with hope. I can't hear your still small voice amidst my own nonsensical screaming. I desire a quiet heart. I wish to be a content baby in your arms. May I wait with hope.